I Devastated Me

Hiding the hurt, hiding the pain, Hiding the tears that fall like rain,

Saying I'm fine, when I'm really not, This aches my soul and crunch my heart;

Days of endless struggle, i wish i could smile a little today,

Trying to appear 'normal', I act in some sort of a way;

My skin is on fire, I burn from within, The calm on my face is an ongoing sin,

The world must stay out, I've built up a wall, My fragility will collapse should it ever stall;

Very little energy shall be seen, Wanting to stay and rot in bed,

Wishing to be enthusiastic, Instead of feeling like I'm made of useless lead;

Loneliness has consumed me, it eats away the precious years,

Delaying my life to be swallowed by treacherous and unending fears;

People say I have a lot going for me, I'm sorry, but I just can't see,

Because my dreadful worst enemy, Is not my life, but inside of me;

Uncomfortable around others for the way I feel, I pray and wish this all wasn't real,

Life just seems more like a prison. Caged, alone and a blockading vision;

I know there's been many, Who've had it worse and bleed at last,

Dear God, why should i go through the mystifying sins of the future past;

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